Marriage.

I wrote this a while ago and it seems still true today...unfortunately.  But still just a little shout out to my wonderful hubby :)


Marriage...so much harder than I thought it would ever be, yet so much more rewarding. I always hated being away from Brad and I feel like I barely see him more than I did when I was living 100 miles away from him. So I miss him a lot and am all unhappy when he isn't home, but then when he is I get all irritable and annoyed and don't spend the quality time that I should with him. How does that even make any sense? Ya know, being a girl adds to this equation...it adds a lot of drama and unnecessary arguements. Not that I should use my emotions and estrogen as an excuse, but sometimes I just want to rip out all my woman parts and give them up. Then I could enjoy time with my husband and laugh and smile, and when he was gone I could find things to do for myself besides mope and complain and cry. And this isn't every day, mind you, just these too frequent of moments when I'm feeling like this. Moral of the story: my husband wins and I am just a putz. He puts up with so much and is always so patient, so willing to do whatever I ask or whatever I need, so in love with me at every second of the day, my shoulder to cry on, my goofy friend to laugh with. Everything. He is my everything. Everything I could ever want and need and couldn't have ever asked for and I will be better for him.