08.06.11

Yesterday was absolutely wonderful!  (I might not do a list, but just describe the day which  describes my love for him anyway :] )  It wasn't necessarily anything special, just one of those days that makes you smile.

We started off by getting up early and going up to Centerville so Brad could play in an outdoor racquetball tourny.  He loves it and had fun, even though he didn't win a whole lot.  We took our new dog Pokie with us and he had a blast as well.

Then we just came home and chilled for a while.  I took a nap while Brad played on the internet and watched Lord of the Rings.  (Pokie loves to lay on mommy, btw.  Haha, he's a hoot!)  So when I woke up we just kinda had lunch and sat around watchin' more TV (which Brad changed because I'm not a huge LOTR fan) and holding hands and all that good stuff.  It was so nice to just get to be with him.

After chillin' and relaxin' all cool, we got ready to go to a barbecue at 5:00 with some of Brad's ex-co-workers up by Skyline High School.  It was pretty fun.  There were 8 of us, Brad's brother and sis-in-law included, and it was definitely an..interesting experience haha.  I always feel ...different being around people who are drinking and smoking...not my favorite atmosphere, but they were really respectful about it so I appreciated that.  We left around 8:30 or so 'cause I just couldn't do the cigarette smoke any more, and even though Brad wanted to stay he was a babe and willingly left with me.

We went home just long enough to grab some supplies and then headed off for our next adventure.  We went to the store and bought me some shorts and went to the park and I'm skipping a lot of details because it was a somewhat risque adventure, Love those kind!  It was fun to spice things up though.  And while we were driving we got to have just really good conversation.  We talked about how "sex" is such a taboo subject in the church and how it's almost discouraged for women in the church to feel "sexy".  Sometimes that makes it hard to feel up for sex, but it's such a vital part of marriage and etc, etc.  Just once again affirming how in line we are in our morals and values and that means so much to me and our marriage.

Then we just came home, cuddled up on the couch, watched Frequency and went to bed.  Like I said, nothing super abnormal, but the day just went smoothly.  I love that man so much.

P.S.  I decided we're gonna stop fighting...I know that sounds funny because first of all it's never intentional and secondly, who ever really wants to fight?  But I just had this ...hope/dream/vision that one day we'd look back at yesterday and be like "Remember that day when we just stopped fighting?"  When I decided that I wasn't gonna yell at Brad for things and ask him nicely and patiently instead.  When I decided to stop sweating the small things and let him help me more instead of try to do everything myself and get overwhelmed; when I decided to ask  for help instead of get irritated that he can't read my mind and know what I want done.  When I decided that being intimate on a more frequent basis is ok, and just because he wants to give me a kiss or a hug doesn't necessarily mean he wants to have sex so it's ok to just let him and enjoy it in return.  When I decided that if we really can't have kids and it's just me and him forever, that's enough for me.  I don't need anything more than him.  When I decided that there are so many ways to avoid the stupid/silly/ridiculous little/big arguments that we sometimes find ourselves in.  Yesterday was the day that I decided that our marriage was going to be different from now on.  I love Bradley and I need to start letting that be more important than everything else.  EVERYTHING else.  Here's to taking it day by day!