October-November.

So I've been really lame and gotten really busy which means behind, so here it goes.

-Brad has been a champion lately; I work 6 days a week with my new job plus the old one and he has just taken over EVERYTHING.
      *Not only does he usually help with the chores around the house like cleaning and laundry, he is now doing it on a consistent basis.  This weekend he cleaned the whole apartment after picking everything up and putting it away, did laundry, put stuff in the attic for me, came to my work and got my paycheck so he could take it to the bank before it closed for the weekend, and more that I'm missing, I know it.  I owe him big time and it has taken so much stress off of me!
-He is so loving.  I know I've said it before, but that hug that he has ready for me every time I come home from work makes a world of difference in leaving work outside the door and being a wife again.
-Patience is Brad's middle name.  I've been somewhat of an emotional wreck lately and he is by my side no matter how much gets taken out on him because he knows I don't mean it to be directed his way.
-He is so excited to be a daddy.  Even though it isn't working out for us thus far he just keeps up a good attitude and wants us to have a baby so much and I love that.
-Brad is growing out his beard for "Movember/No Shave November" and "Decembeard" and "Diableard" haha phew!  And this may be silly, but I love it.  I think he looks hot with a beard and it gives him that little bit of rough around the edges.  Ow ow!
-He is my everything.  Especially with Thanksgiving coming up I have just realized a lot lately how much I really depend on him and how much he doesn't let me down.  He always tries his hardest and does everything he can to make us happy and I couldn't appreciate that more.  I love you honey.  Thank you for EVERYTHING you do.  You truly are the biggest blessing in my life.

10.17.11

-Brad is such a hard worker.
-Even though he wasn't excited about our Halloween party he let me go through with it and didn't get upset when he found out how much I spent on it.
-He lets me splurge on things for myself.  As much as this isn't necessarily a good thing because I drain our bank account, he just wants me to be happy and I love that about him.
-He really wants to be a dad, and is so supportive during this whole "can't have a baby" thing.
-I want to be a better person for him.  I love the person that he makes me feel like I can be.

10.12.11

-Brad gets so excited about his friends.  Our friend who just got back from his mission came over last night and Brad was super excited about seeing him.  It's just cute :)
-Brad is always so complimentary about my haircutting skills haha.  He brags to people about how good I am at it. Gotta love him.
-He is so willing to do anything and everything around the house if I just ask.
-He tries so hard to be "perfect" all the time, but he doesn't even matter he's perfect for me.
-Brad is all mine!

10.09.11

-I love Brad in a suit.  He's just so hot!
-He helped me clean up our house to have company over even though he thinks it's kinda silly.
-Brad LOVES puppies...especially ours and dachshunds! The same friends that came over last night also brought their 10 week old dachshund puppy and Brad was just so cute with him.  I love when he melts off that manhood :)
-We cuddled a lot this weekend.  He loves cuddling and I was actually feelin' it this weekend and it was wonderful :)
-I have this stupid obsession with picking zits and unfortunately Brad is the victim most of the time...mostly because he's so patient and just deals with it.

How did I get so lucky?  It's the little things that matter, I'm tellin' ya!

10.08.11

-I had to work yesterday and kinda left a mess from Friday night and Brad totally cleaned up the whole thing before I got home.  Such a nice feeling to walk into a clean house after a day of work!
-He knew I wouldn't want to go to the BASh and even though he had wanted to go for months and got the chance to go, we stayed home and spent the whole day together instead.
-He is always willing to play games with me.  My family is big on playing board games or card games or any other kind of game and he fits right in.
-I love how hard Brad works to support us.  He works a job he really doesn't love just so he can have a job, and in the mean time works hard to find something that will be better for us as a family.
-I love going to Target with Brad :)  Every time we pass the baby section he stops and gives me his little pouty lip like "Look how cute and precious".  Melts my heart every time!

10.06.11

-Brad always takes care of me when I'm sick.  Even when I'm needy and naggy and drugged up he is right there to do whatever I need him to do. WITH a smile on his face :)
-He watches silly shows on TV with me that I know he thinks are silly, but he just wants to be with me so he puts up with them.
-He is so giddy and excited about the cold weather, I can't help but laugh at him even when I'm shivering underneath the covers.
-He is a very loyal and caring friend.  Whenever his friends are going through a tough time he is there to ask them how they're doing and how they're dealing with the situation.  I know it's not easy for guys to be that way with each other, but I really admire that about him.
-Brad truly loves his family unconditionally.  Sometimes I really struggle with this because he lets some of them hurt him so many times, but no matter what they do he forgives them and moves on with their relationship.  I guess that's why he's so good at being my husband and I'm really trying harder to not take advantage of his loving and forgiving ways.

09.06.11

-Brad did the laundry to the best of his ability today.
-He bathed and brushed Pokie.
-He stopped by my work on his way home, which he doesn't love to do because I just likes to get home, so he could pick up my check and take it to the bank for me.
-He went on a walk with me after my long day of work when all he wanted to do was sit and read.
-I love his smile.  His Chelsea smile.  The one he only gives to me :)

This Weekend.

So I don't have dates, but we'll just go with this weekend as a whole...

-I love how spontaneous we are together...at the drop of a hat Brad will get up and go anywhere with me.
-The way he looks in the temple...I love being there together.
-He is obsessed with Texas Road House rolls...haha it's cute.
-I love how well he just melds with any and everyone.  He is so personable!
-He is trying to be a better person and make small improvements and as much as I miss his beard, I respect him for it!

08.24.11

I think it's important to point out that even when our days aren't perfect, he still seems to pull off amazingness.  Like yesterday...we argued, but I still have plenty to write.

-He will do anything for my family.
-He's very on top of keeping the lawn mowed on Wednesday nights.
-I love his passion for sports.
-I love how confident he is...something I envy for sure.
-He knows that I want to work out and really encourages me to go to the gym; he even waits to go to the gym while I get tutored so he can go with me after.

Slight Delay.

It's been a while, but here's today's list:

-He always has my back.
-He truly is my rock.  When everything is crumbling around me, those arms are there to hold me up, carry me through, and encircle me with love.
-I love his cute little texts.  Today: "It must be busy [at work] a lot.  Just dropping you a line to say hi and that I love you!  You're the best.  Hope you are feeling better than yesterday."  Simple, but so appreciated.
-He loves our puppy.  He's such a good daddy to Pokie, I can't wait to see him with our kids.
-All his laundry was put away when I got home and all of mine (that he dares haha) is folded and ready for me to put anally away.  :)

08.07.11

Today was just chill, but Brad always steps up to the plate:
-He came into my substitute primary class so I didn't have to do it by myself.
-He helped me shave and bathe our puppy :)
-He's always there to set the table at dinner time.
-I love his interest in sports.
-He lets me watch silly things like The Glee Project and The Teen Choice Awards.

08.06.11

Yesterday was absolutely wonderful!  (I might not do a list, but just describe the day which  describes my love for him anyway :] )  It wasn't necessarily anything special, just one of those days that makes you smile.

We started off by getting up early and going up to Centerville so Brad could play in an outdoor racquetball tourny.  He loves it and had fun, even though he didn't win a whole lot.  We took our new dog Pokie with us and he had a blast as well.

Then we just came home and chilled for a while.  I took a nap while Brad played on the internet and watched Lord of the Rings.  (Pokie loves to lay on mommy, btw.  Haha, he's a hoot!)  So when I woke up we just kinda had lunch and sat around watchin' more TV (which Brad changed because I'm not a huge LOTR fan) and holding hands and all that good stuff.  It was so nice to just get to be with him.

After chillin' and relaxin' all cool, we got ready to go to a barbecue at 5:00 with some of Brad's ex-co-workers up by Skyline High School.  It was pretty fun.  There were 8 of us, Brad's brother and sis-in-law included, and it was definitely an..interesting experience haha.  I always feel ...different being around people who are drinking and smoking...not my favorite atmosphere, but they were really respectful about it so I appreciated that.  We left around 8:30 or so 'cause I just couldn't do the cigarette smoke any more, and even though Brad wanted to stay he was a babe and willingly left with me.

We went home just long enough to grab some supplies and then headed off for our next adventure.  We went to the store and bought me some shorts and went to the park and I'm skipping a lot of details because it was a somewhat risque adventure, Love those kind!  It was fun to spice things up though.  And while we were driving we got to have just really good conversation.  We talked about how "sex" is such a taboo subject in the church and how it's almost discouraged for women in the church to feel "sexy".  Sometimes that makes it hard to feel up for sex, but it's such a vital part of marriage and etc, etc.  Just once again affirming how in line we are in our morals and values and that means so much to me and our marriage.

Then we just came home, cuddled up on the couch, watched Frequency and went to bed.  Like I said, nothing super abnormal, but the day just went smoothly.  I love that man so much.

P.S.  I decided we're gonna stop fighting...I know that sounds funny because first of all it's never intentional and secondly, who ever really wants to fight?  But I just had this ...hope/dream/vision that one day we'd look back at yesterday and be like "Remember that day when we just stopped fighting?"  When I decided that I wasn't gonna yell at Brad for things and ask him nicely and patiently instead.  When I decided to stop sweating the small things and let him help me more instead of try to do everything myself and get overwhelmed; when I decided to ask  for help instead of get irritated that he can't read my mind and know what I want done.  When I decided that being intimate on a more frequent basis is ok, and just because he wants to give me a kiss or a hug doesn't necessarily mean he wants to have sex so it's ok to just let him and enjoy it in return.  When I decided that if we really can't have kids and it's just me and him forever, that's enough for me.  I don't need anything more than him.  When I decided that there are so many ways to avoid the stupid/silly/ridiculous little/big arguments that we sometimes find ourselves in.  Yesterday was the day that I decided that our marriage was going to be different from now on.  I love Bradley and I need to start letting that be more important than everything else.  EVERYTHING else.  Here's to taking it day by day!

08.04.11 & 08.05.11

I missed yesterday so now I get to do 10 things :)

-I love how affectionate he is, even when I'm not.  I love that he's always willing to be.
-He comes and brings me things at work even when he hates it.
-He was so cute and excited to see Pokie when he got home from work yesterday!
-Even though I wasn't with him when he picked out the Redbox movie, he picked something he thought I would like.
-I love walks and he puts up with them enough to go with me.

-He is obsessed with ultimate frisbee, it's funny :)  But he's really good, so it's a good thing to be obsessed with.
-On that same note, I love how athletic he is, that he's not a wuss.  He loves to go outside and play.
-He loves Pokie :)  haha sounds silly, but it's darling. He was so excited to get a day with him today all by himself.  And Brad gets super sad when we have to go to bed/put Pokie in his crate and let him cry for a while.  Such a good daddy :)
-He is a nerd.  I have a love hate relationship with this one haha but mostly it makes me smile.  He is so into such nerdy things, but kind of like a closet nerd, so I'm the only one who gets to experience it...lucky me ;)
-Brad hates bedtime haha.  He's like a 5 year old and always wants to stay up later than he should.  I love my little man :)

Why I Love Him, Vol. I

It is really pathetic that I haven't posted since February, but I have so much to share and so little time!  I have taken Brad for granted a lot lately.  It is amazing how quickly I let myself fall into the trap of irritation and impatience and forgot all the small, and even huge things, that my husband does for me.  I want to start a "5 a Day" blog posting...just stop by once a day to write 5 things: things I love about him, things he's done for me, things I appreciate him, what he's done to make me laugh/smile, etc.  We've been so involved in trying to have a baby that I've let the romance slip in our marriage...NOT OK!  So, here goes post number one...with maybe a few more than five:

-I love Brad's beard.  Silly, but I know one of the big reasons he keeps it is because of me and I appreciate it.
-I love our inside jokes haha.
-"That was weird...that was also weird.." said in unison.
-He works long hours and early mornings to support us.
-Yesterday he came and had dinner with me on my long day of work.  It always makes the day go better.
-He has a huge smile and a big kiss waiting for me every day when I get home, even if I'm grumpy and don't feel like it.
-He is truly my best friend.

I am so lucky to have him, and this blog will prove that!

Wow!

I am so lame and such a slacker and my hubby deserves so much more recognition than I have given him lately.  He has been so incredible lately...and really he is always incredible, but my eyes have been a little bit more open lately.  I've really been trying to fix my attitude and focus more on the positive things in my life instead of negative, and it has opened up my eyes to a world of things that he does for me on a daily basis that I have been taking for granted...so here's gonna be a lengthy list of those things to try to make up for the time that I have lost:


- Any time I need anything he will get up from what he is doing and get it for me...regardless of what it is.  Even if I just say "I want an orange" out loud without thinking about it, he is up and in the fridge getting me one.
- He won't let me leave the house without giving me a kiss and telling me he loves me if he's awake and home and not in the shower...and even sometimes then too :)
- He is always there to send me supportive/optimistic texts when I'm struggling with my schedule or my medication or whatever it may be that's bugging me during the day when he can't be with me.
- He tells me how beautiful or gorgeous he thinks I am every single day.  He never misses.
- 90% of the time he is standing at the door with open arms when I come home from a long day to hug all my stress away.
- He is ready to cuddle/kiss me/hug me/be affectionate at any time and any place even when sometimes I don't feel like it or need my space.  When I'm ready to cuddle or need him to hold me, he is there...never pushes me away.
- He is seriously the most positive person I have ever met.  Nothing gets him down and nothing makes him lose his faith.  He is so stalwart and optimistic about life.  Without him and without his attitude I wouldn't be able to make it through the day...it's contagious!
- He never gets mad at me...I'm pretty sure ever.  Unless I am being a complete and total jerk and yelling at him and he has to defend himself he really never gets upset with me...or even irritated or annoyed with me.  He is SO patient!
- He will watch a chick flick with me anytime, any day.  We watch so many chick flicks in comparison to action movies or manly movies...really our Netflix queue is mostly my movies and he just watches them with me with a smile on his face.
- I forget to take my meds at night a lot of the time and he'll get up out of bed and go to the bathroom, get my pills and a glass of water, and make sure I take them before I go to bed.
- Whenever I have a headache or don't feel good he will also get me meds, then scratch my back, massage my shoulders, play with my hair, or whatever else might make me feel better at the time for as long as it takes me to feel better.  And he never gets sick so it's not even him doing it to get it in return because it sure doesn't happen as much as it should.
- He will do any "chore" I ask him to.  Even after the times I get on him for not doing things "perfectly" or "my way" he still continues to do things with no complaints.  He is so humble and I'm trying to learn that from him!
- He adores me.  I know that sounds conceited, but I have NEVER doubted Brad's feelings for me.  If the way he looks at me and the way he holds me and the way he kisses me didn't give it away, everything else he does is proof of his devotion to me; something I have always needed: security.


And those are only a tiny percentage of the things he does for me on a normal basis.  So, the moral of the story is that I have the most incredible husband on the planet.  I am going to try a lot harder to keep this blog up, but with my schedule I don't know how well I will be able to do that.  He deserves more recognition, however, and I will be giving that to him.  I love you baby!