Why I Love Him, Vol. I

It is really pathetic that I haven't posted since February, but I have so much to share and so little time!  I have taken Brad for granted a lot lately.  It is amazing how quickly I let myself fall into the trap of irritation and impatience and forgot all the small, and even huge things, that my husband does for me.  I want to start a "5 a Day" blog posting...just stop by once a day to write 5 things: things I love about him, things he's done for me, things I appreciate him, what he's done to make me laugh/smile, etc.  We've been so involved in trying to have a baby that I've let the romance slip in our marriage...NOT OK!  So, here goes post number one...with maybe a few more than five:

-I love Brad's beard.  Silly, but I know one of the big reasons he keeps it is because of me and I appreciate it.
-I love our inside jokes haha.
-"That was weird...that was also weird.." said in unison.
-He works long hours and early mornings to support us.
-Yesterday he came and had dinner with me on my long day of work.  It always makes the day go better.
-He has a huge smile and a big kiss waiting for me every day when I get home, even if I'm grumpy and don't feel like it.
-He is truly my best friend.

I am so lucky to have him, and this blog will prove that!

Wow!

I am so lame and such a slacker and my hubby deserves so much more recognition than I have given him lately.  He has been so incredible lately...and really he is always incredible, but my eyes have been a little bit more open lately.  I've really been trying to fix my attitude and focus more on the positive things in my life instead of negative, and it has opened up my eyes to a world of things that he does for me on a daily basis that I have been taking for granted...so here's gonna be a lengthy list of those things to try to make up for the time that I have lost:


- Any time I need anything he will get up from what he is doing and get it for me...regardless of what it is.  Even if I just say "I want an orange" out loud without thinking about it, he is up and in the fridge getting me one.
- He won't let me leave the house without giving me a kiss and telling me he loves me if he's awake and home and not in the shower...and even sometimes then too :)
- He is always there to send me supportive/optimistic texts when I'm struggling with my schedule or my medication or whatever it may be that's bugging me during the day when he can't be with me.
- He tells me how beautiful or gorgeous he thinks I am every single day.  He never misses.
- 90% of the time he is standing at the door with open arms when I come home from a long day to hug all my stress away.
- He is ready to cuddle/kiss me/hug me/be affectionate at any time and any place even when sometimes I don't feel like it or need my space.  When I'm ready to cuddle or need him to hold me, he is there...never pushes me away.
- He is seriously the most positive person I have ever met.  Nothing gets him down and nothing makes him lose his faith.  He is so stalwart and optimistic about life.  Without him and without his attitude I wouldn't be able to make it through the day...it's contagious!
- He never gets mad at me...I'm pretty sure ever.  Unless I am being a complete and total jerk and yelling at him and he has to defend himself he really never gets upset with me...or even irritated or annoyed with me.  He is SO patient!
- He will watch a chick flick with me anytime, any day.  We watch so many chick flicks in comparison to action movies or manly movies...really our Netflix queue is mostly my movies and he just watches them with me with a smile on his face.
- I forget to take my meds at night a lot of the time and he'll get up out of bed and go to the bathroom, get my pills and a glass of water, and make sure I take them before I go to bed.
- Whenever I have a headache or don't feel good he will also get me meds, then scratch my back, massage my shoulders, play with my hair, or whatever else might make me feel better at the time for as long as it takes me to feel better.  And he never gets sick so it's not even him doing it to get it in return because it sure doesn't happen as much as it should.
- He will do any "chore" I ask him to.  Even after the times I get on him for not doing things "perfectly" or "my way" he still continues to do things with no complaints.  He is so humble and I'm trying to learn that from him!
- He adores me.  I know that sounds conceited, but I have NEVER doubted Brad's feelings for me.  If the way he looks at me and the way he holds me and the way he kisses me didn't give it away, everything else he does is proof of his devotion to me; something I have always needed: security.


And those are only a tiny percentage of the things he does for me on a normal basis.  So, the moral of the story is that I have the most incredible husband on the planet.  I am going to try a lot harder to keep this blog up, but with my schedule I don't know how well I will be able to do that.  He deserves more recognition, however, and I will be giving that to him.  I love you baby!

Way Too Long!

So it's been way too long since I last blogged about my wonderful husband, so here I am to try to make up for that.

This semester has been pretty tough on me.  I thought I could handle this full time work and full time school schedule and be ok...boy, was I ever wrong!  I've been beyond moody, grumpy, emotional, unhappy, exhausted, etc.  And guess who's gotten all the guff from that?  Ding ding ding!  Brad.  :(  I can't tell you how awful I feel for all of it.  He doesn't deserve it, but he just takes it and shrugs it off and tries to do whatever he can to help me be happy.  I don't know how he does it.  He's always so patient and understanding and helpful even when I'm terrible and completely out of line.  He even bought me roses last week and I was still a jerk.  They were beautiful and once I got over my emotion spell I was able to enjoy the long stemmed, red, gorgeous flowers :)  And he even let me get a chore chart so that I can have him doing things on a daily basis haha.  Man, he's great.

So, I just thought he deserved a HUGE shout out for being such a wonderful husband on a super consistent basis and putting up with every single thing I throw at him.  Thank you baby I love you!  We'll get through all of this together :)

Taking Over.

I owe Brad so much for taking over so many of the responsibilities that I was carrying before I started school: laundry, cleaning, dishes, even yardwork, etc.  He is a stud and has kept up with our house so well, especially considering how much he's trying to do outside of the house with work.  So another huge thank you to the best man I know for doing so much for so long while I work on this portion of my life.  Love you babe!

School.

I started school again this semester and I just need to say a huge thank you to my husband for putting up with how grouchy I am.  I am not dealing with people at work well, I'm not patient, and I'm freaking exhausted when I get home from work.  So when the only time I see him is after work and school and I'm exhausted, he gets the brunt of all of the impatience and irritation.  So, thank you honey for loving me despite my awfulness.  We'll adjust to this schedule sometime!  I love you!

Marriage.

I wrote this a while ago and it seems still true today...unfortunately.  But still just a little shout out to my wonderful hubby :)


Marriage...so much harder than I thought it would ever be, yet so much more rewarding. I always hated being away from Brad and I feel like I barely see him more than I did when I was living 100 miles away from him. So I miss him a lot and am all unhappy when he isn't home, but then when he is I get all irritable and annoyed and don't spend the quality time that I should with him. How does that even make any sense? Ya know, being a girl adds to this equation...it adds a lot of drama and unnecessary arguements. Not that I should use my emotions and estrogen as an excuse, but sometimes I just want to rip out all my woman parts and give them up. Then I could enjoy time with my husband and laugh and smile, and when he was gone I could find things to do for myself besides mope and complain and cry. And this isn't every day, mind you, just these too frequent of moments when I'm feeling like this. Moral of the story: my husband wins and I am just a putz. He puts up with so much and is always so patient, so willing to do whatever I ask or whatever I need, so in love with me at every second of the day, my shoulder to cry on, my goofy friend to laugh with. Everything. He is my everything. Everything I could ever want and need and couldn't have ever asked for and I will be better for him.

Mattresses.

For our entire marriage Brad and I have slept on a double/full bed.  For the two of us, Brad at 6'5" and myself at 5'10", this was tiny.  So a couple of weeks ago we moved the double bed into our extra bedroom and borrowed two twin mattresses from my parents to put together and use as a king.  At first it was so great!  We finally had room to sleep next to each other and not on top of each other, I could stretch out in the morning and not hit him, I didn't have to worry about quietly sliding out from under an appendage of his in the morning as not to wake it up, wonderful, right?  Well after a couple days I noticed that I had gotten the much older/flatter/out of working conditions-er mattress and I was not sleeping.  So what does this have to with my dear hubby?  Well the day before yesterday I came home and first off, the house was neat and the bed was made!  Yay hubby!  Not that it's super rare, just not as common as it could be so I was pleasantly surprised.  So we had a wonderful evening, etc.  And then we went to go lay down to go to sleep and what do I feel!?  A COMFY MATTRESS!!!  In his house cleaning and bed making, he had switched his decently comfy mattress with my completely uncomfy one.  I know it sounds silly, but it was a complete difference in my comfort level which resulted in a complete difference in my sleep.  I appreciated it a ton and am super grateful of how aware he is of me.  Thank you honey, I love you!