Slight Delay.

It's been a while, but here's today's list:

-He always has my back.
-He truly is my rock.  When everything is crumbling around me, those arms are there to hold me up, carry me through, and encircle me with love.
-I love his cute little texts.  Today: "It must be busy [at work] a lot.  Just dropping you a line to say hi and that I love you!  You're the best.  Hope you are feeling better than yesterday."  Simple, but so appreciated.
-He loves our puppy.  He's such a good daddy to Pokie, I can't wait to see him with our kids.
-All his laundry was put away when I got home and all of mine (that he dares haha) is folded and ready for me to put anally away.  :)

08.07.11

Today was just chill, but Brad always steps up to the plate:
-He came into my substitute primary class so I didn't have to do it by myself.
-He helped me shave and bathe our puppy :)
-He's always there to set the table at dinner time.
-I love his interest in sports.
-He lets me watch silly things like The Glee Project and The Teen Choice Awards.

08.06.11

Yesterday was absolutely wonderful!  (I might not do a list, but just describe the day which  describes my love for him anyway :] )  It wasn't necessarily anything special, just one of those days that makes you smile.

We started off by getting up early and going up to Centerville so Brad could play in an outdoor racquetball tourny.  He loves it and had fun, even though he didn't win a whole lot.  We took our new dog Pokie with us and he had a blast as well.

Then we just came home and chilled for a while.  I took a nap while Brad played on the internet and watched Lord of the Rings.  (Pokie loves to lay on mommy, btw.  Haha, he's a hoot!)  So when I woke up we just kinda had lunch and sat around watchin' more TV (which Brad changed because I'm not a huge LOTR fan) and holding hands and all that good stuff.  It was so nice to just get to be with him.

After chillin' and relaxin' all cool, we got ready to go to a barbecue at 5:00 with some of Brad's ex-co-workers up by Skyline High School.  It was pretty fun.  There were 8 of us, Brad's brother and sis-in-law included, and it was definitely an..interesting experience haha.  I always feel ...different being around people who are drinking and smoking...not my favorite atmosphere, but they were really respectful about it so I appreciated that.  We left around 8:30 or so 'cause I just couldn't do the cigarette smoke any more, and even though Brad wanted to stay he was a babe and willingly left with me.

We went home just long enough to grab some supplies and then headed off for our next adventure.  We went to the store and bought me some shorts and went to the park and I'm skipping a lot of details because it was a somewhat risque adventure, Love those kind!  It was fun to spice things up though.  And while we were driving we got to have just really good conversation.  We talked about how "sex" is such a taboo subject in the church and how it's almost discouraged for women in the church to feel "sexy".  Sometimes that makes it hard to feel up for sex, but it's such a vital part of marriage and etc, etc.  Just once again affirming how in line we are in our morals and values and that means so much to me and our marriage.

Then we just came home, cuddled up on the couch, watched Frequency and went to bed.  Like I said, nothing super abnormal, but the day just went smoothly.  I love that man so much.

P.S.  I decided we're gonna stop fighting...I know that sounds funny because first of all it's never intentional and secondly, who ever really wants to fight?  But I just had this ...hope/dream/vision that one day we'd look back at yesterday and be like "Remember that day when we just stopped fighting?"  When I decided that I wasn't gonna yell at Brad for things and ask him nicely and patiently instead.  When I decided to stop sweating the small things and let him help me more instead of try to do everything myself and get overwhelmed; when I decided to ask  for help instead of get irritated that he can't read my mind and know what I want done.  When I decided that being intimate on a more frequent basis is ok, and just because he wants to give me a kiss or a hug doesn't necessarily mean he wants to have sex so it's ok to just let him and enjoy it in return.  When I decided that if we really can't have kids and it's just me and him forever, that's enough for me.  I don't need anything more than him.  When I decided that there are so many ways to avoid the stupid/silly/ridiculous little/big arguments that we sometimes find ourselves in.  Yesterday was the day that I decided that our marriage was going to be different from now on.  I love Bradley and I need to start letting that be more important than everything else.  EVERYTHING else.  Here's to taking it day by day!

08.04.11 & 08.05.11

I missed yesterday so now I get to do 10 things :)

-I love how affectionate he is, even when I'm not.  I love that he's always willing to be.
-He comes and brings me things at work even when he hates it.
-He was so cute and excited to see Pokie when he got home from work yesterday!
-Even though I wasn't with him when he picked out the Redbox movie, he picked something he thought I would like.
-I love walks and he puts up with them enough to go with me.

-He is obsessed with ultimate frisbee, it's funny :)  But he's really good, so it's a good thing to be obsessed with.
-On that same note, I love how athletic he is, that he's not a wuss.  He loves to go outside and play.
-He loves Pokie :)  haha sounds silly, but it's darling. He was so excited to get a day with him today all by himself.  And Brad gets super sad when we have to go to bed/put Pokie in his crate and let him cry for a while.  Such a good daddy :)
-He is a nerd.  I have a love hate relationship with this one haha but mostly it makes me smile.  He is so into such nerdy things, but kind of like a closet nerd, so I'm the only one who gets to experience it...lucky me ;)
-Brad hates bedtime haha.  He's like a 5 year old and always wants to stay up later than he should.  I love my little man :)

Why I Love Him, Vol. I

It is really pathetic that I haven't posted since February, but I have so much to share and so little time!  I have taken Brad for granted a lot lately.  It is amazing how quickly I let myself fall into the trap of irritation and impatience and forgot all the small, and even huge things, that my husband does for me.  I want to start a "5 a Day" blog posting...just stop by once a day to write 5 things: things I love about him, things he's done for me, things I appreciate him, what he's done to make me laugh/smile, etc.  We've been so involved in trying to have a baby that I've let the romance slip in our marriage...NOT OK!  So, here goes post number one...with maybe a few more than five:

-I love Brad's beard.  Silly, but I know one of the big reasons he keeps it is because of me and I appreciate it.
-I love our inside jokes haha.
-"That was weird...that was also weird.." said in unison.
-He works long hours and early mornings to support us.
-Yesterday he came and had dinner with me on my long day of work.  It always makes the day go better.
-He has a huge smile and a big kiss waiting for me every day when I get home, even if I'm grumpy and don't feel like it.
-He is truly my best friend.

I am so lucky to have him, and this blog will prove that!

Wow!

I am so lame and such a slacker and my hubby deserves so much more recognition than I have given him lately.  He has been so incredible lately...and really he is always incredible, but my eyes have been a little bit more open lately.  I've really been trying to fix my attitude and focus more on the positive things in my life instead of negative, and it has opened up my eyes to a world of things that he does for me on a daily basis that I have been taking for granted...so here's gonna be a lengthy list of those things to try to make up for the time that I have lost:


- Any time I need anything he will get up from what he is doing and get it for me...regardless of what it is.  Even if I just say "I want an orange" out loud without thinking about it, he is up and in the fridge getting me one.
- He won't let me leave the house without giving me a kiss and telling me he loves me if he's awake and home and not in the shower...and even sometimes then too :)
- He is always there to send me supportive/optimistic texts when I'm struggling with my schedule or my medication or whatever it may be that's bugging me during the day when he can't be with me.
- He tells me how beautiful or gorgeous he thinks I am every single day.  He never misses.
- 90% of the time he is standing at the door with open arms when I come home from a long day to hug all my stress away.
- He is ready to cuddle/kiss me/hug me/be affectionate at any time and any place even when sometimes I don't feel like it or need my space.  When I'm ready to cuddle or need him to hold me, he is there...never pushes me away.
- He is seriously the most positive person I have ever met.  Nothing gets him down and nothing makes him lose his faith.  He is so stalwart and optimistic about life.  Without him and without his attitude I wouldn't be able to make it through the day...it's contagious!
- He never gets mad at me...I'm pretty sure ever.  Unless I am being a complete and total jerk and yelling at him and he has to defend himself he really never gets upset with me...or even irritated or annoyed with me.  He is SO patient!
- He will watch a chick flick with me anytime, any day.  We watch so many chick flicks in comparison to action movies or manly movies...really our Netflix queue is mostly my movies and he just watches them with me with a smile on his face.
- I forget to take my meds at night a lot of the time and he'll get up out of bed and go to the bathroom, get my pills and a glass of water, and make sure I take them before I go to bed.
- Whenever I have a headache or don't feel good he will also get me meds, then scratch my back, massage my shoulders, play with my hair, or whatever else might make me feel better at the time for as long as it takes me to feel better.  And he never gets sick so it's not even him doing it to get it in return because it sure doesn't happen as much as it should.
- He will do any "chore" I ask him to.  Even after the times I get on him for not doing things "perfectly" or "my way" he still continues to do things with no complaints.  He is so humble and I'm trying to learn that from him!
- He adores me.  I know that sounds conceited, but I have NEVER doubted Brad's feelings for me.  If the way he looks at me and the way he holds me and the way he kisses me didn't give it away, everything else he does is proof of his devotion to me; something I have always needed: security.


And those are only a tiny percentage of the things he does for me on a normal basis.  So, the moral of the story is that I have the most incredible husband on the planet.  I am going to try a lot harder to keep this blog up, but with my schedule I don't know how well I will be able to do that.  He deserves more recognition, however, and I will be giving that to him.  I love you baby!

Way Too Long!

So it's been way too long since I last blogged about my wonderful husband, so here I am to try to make up for that.

This semester has been pretty tough on me.  I thought I could handle this full time work and full time school schedule and be ok...boy, was I ever wrong!  I've been beyond moody, grumpy, emotional, unhappy, exhausted, etc.  And guess who's gotten all the guff from that?  Ding ding ding!  Brad.  :(  I can't tell you how awful I feel for all of it.  He doesn't deserve it, but he just takes it and shrugs it off and tries to do whatever he can to help me be happy.  I don't know how he does it.  He's always so patient and understanding and helpful even when I'm terrible and completely out of line.  He even bought me roses last week and I was still a jerk.  They were beautiful and once I got over my emotion spell I was able to enjoy the long stemmed, red, gorgeous flowers :)  And he even let me get a chore chart so that I can have him doing things on a daily basis haha.  Man, he's great.

So, I just thought he deserved a HUGE shout out for being such a wonderful husband on a super consistent basis and putting up with every single thing I throw at him.  Thank you baby I love you!  We'll get through all of this together :)